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[12 Nov 2006|01:47am] What type of personality do you have? Here is the analysis: Bright and Cheerful You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well. think of me

[21 Apr 2006|03:18pm] well it is thursday and the reason i havent gotten a chance to update is because gloria took my computer away for a few days cause i skipped school one morning. last weekend it was easter and on saturday night it was me and steveie trying to find something to do. so we're callin around and chris schneider had told me that he was having a small get together at his house to watch movies and such so i talked to justin chaffin cause that was his birthday and all steveie and i decide to go to mcdonalds to eat, cause we were supposed to go to a movie with latisha lina and some others but i friggen thought i lost my $50 and we had to go home and find it (which i did) and iwanted steveie to have a good time because her aunt had died and she had the showing that day. we were at mcdonalds and darin called me and was like are you going out to chris's house and i was like yea and hes like well we're staying at tylers and i was like oh ok so we went out to chris's and they left right after we got there because they didnt have their alcohol like they thought. well at chris's we just watched the tenacious d dvd and stuff and it was kinda boring and i dont think steveie wanted to be around beaver so we went out to tylers. me and steveie were the only people with alcohol and so we were drinking and stuff and i felt bad so i was lik eill go get my fifth for you guys and so cody me and justin went and it was a great time just cause it was such a nice night and stuff. so on the way back to tylers i took a bunch of straight shots and i was pretty drunk steveie and i sat on the pool table and sang tracy chapman and then everyone wanted to build a bonfire so we did. when we were out there i really had to pee so steveie and i came inside and darin too cause he was cold. steveie got really tired so she went to bed and darin was downstairs and he made a bed on the futon and was watching tv. so i sat on the floor talking to him and he was like so where are you sleeping tonight? and i was like idk probably wherever i end up..and he was like you can sleep up here and i was like okay so i got blankets and layed next to him. we were just watching tv and stuff and it was cute because we were having like really good conversation and we were just joking around and we were like fighting over the remote and idk it was just cuute! and then the other guys came back in from the bonfire and they tried to take our spots and stuff but we ended up both getting them back. then everyone went to bed and it was odd because it was like i knew that stuff was going to happen. we were both laying there facing each other and the next thing you know i feel him like tickling my hip. at first i barely noticed it and then he started kind of rubbing it. so i reached to put my hand down by his and he started putting it on my stomach and down my pants. i really didnt know if i wanted him to but then i did. then while he was doing that i kissed him and we started making out a little. we just kissed for a while and then he fingered me again. i think that he wanted me to do stuff to him but i didnt want to. then we just layed there holding each other and then he went to get a drink and smoke and he came back and went to bed. It was like 6:30, so we were laying there together for like 4 hours! i could barely sleep, i didnt feel good.and the next morning i worked on EASTER and i got like 2 hrs of sleep if that think of me

[01 Mar 2006|09:14pm] every car that seems to pass is blue and each time i crane my neck to see if its you how can two people be so close but not speaking i swear my intentions were good and this isnt what im seeking every day i have to live in a lie and it gets hard to see her standing by how can you go on like everythings fine i swear this is what i wanted but now im walking a short line every time we're alone i know we're both thinking it and i cant see how you fake it even in the least bit how can i feel so strongly for someone who has so much more i swear ive lost it, with someone too untouchable to fall for every kiss we've shared crosses my mind every day and i'll never forget how you touched my thumb in such a suprising way how can i think that any of this would matter i swear if i cant get over you my heart will soon shatter. think of me

[04 Jan 2006|07:34pm] have you ever kissed someone...(bold it if you have done it) on the cheek. on the lips. on their hands or fingers. in my room. in their room. of the same sex. of the opposite sex. younger than me. older than me. with jet black hair. with curly hair. with blonde hair & blue eyes. with flaming red hair. with straight hair. smaller/shorter than me. bigger/taller than me. with a lip ring. who was drunk. who was high. who I had just met. who was homosexual. who I didn't really want to kiss. on a holiday. who was going out with someone else. who was going out with someone close to me. who was my good friend's brother or sister. who had been/is in jail. in a graveyard. at a show/concert. at the beach. in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water. who was legally too old for me to have sex with. (im not sure whats considered illegal... 20 and 17 isn't illegal, right?) with dyed hair. with a shaved head. who was/is my good friend. who was/is in a band. who has tattoos. who is of a completely different race to me. in the rain. <-- sadly no!even though i wanna!!!!! in another continent besides where I was born. with an accent. on a boat. in a car/taxi/bus. on a plane. at the circus/carnival. with a missing body part. in the movies. eskimo style. think of me

[30 Dec 2005|06:46pm] Just an old friend coming over Now to visit you and That's what I've become I let myself in Though I know I'm not supposed to but I never know when I'm done And I see you fogging up the mirror Vapor around your body glistens in the shower And I wanna stay right here And go down on you for an hour Or stay and let the day just fade away In a wild dedication Take the moment of hope And let it run Never look back At all the damage we have done now To each other To each other To each other But when I see you It's like I'm staring down the sun And I'm blinded There's nothing left to do and still I see you I never believe that things that they happen for a reason And they never go as planned I wanted to thank you for a vision that was lost that you returned But you're past where you understand Now her appetite is blown Little else is known except she's a little angry Grabs a towel, looks away and heat fades with the day And I fall down on what to say oh something clean, let me be clever Hey oh well, whatever But that's not what I mean Where we're been has left us burned still i wont turn now from a fight You know I'll never win so when I see you you know all the things I've done well i'm blinded Like I'm staring down the sun When I see you When I see you When I see you It's like I'm staring down the sun (Hey! I'm Blinded!) (Hey! I'm Blinded!) (Hey! I'm Blinded!) Time it passes and it tells us what we're left with We become the things we do Me, I'm a fool, spent from defiance yeah you got me but I didn't give up on you icarus is not a tee shirt or a swan song, no He is born again and It's not easy being me but I can't promise I will mend Or bend when you believe That we are fixed now from our birth And I've just fallen back to earth Still you know I'll try again Cause I believe that we are lucky We are golden We have stolen manners in the days when we were one So when I see you In spite of all that we've become I'm still blinded But I'm still staring down the sun When I see you When I see you When I see you When I see you Oh yeah I'm still staring down the sun Oh yeah I'm still staring down the sun Oh yeah Well I'm still staring down the sun I'm blinded When I see you When I see you When I see you *** Awake on my airplane Awake on my airplane My skin is bare My skin is theirs Awake on my airplane Awake on my airplane My skin is bare My skin is theirs I feel like a newborn And I feel like a newborn Awake on my airplane Awake on my airplane I feel so real Chorus: Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Yeah I don't believe in I don't believe in In your sanctity Your privacy I don't believe in I don't believe in Sanctity A hypocrisy Could everyone agree that No one should be left alone Could everyone agree that They should not be left alone yeah And I feel like a newborn And I feel like a newborn Kicking and screaming Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Yeah Hey dad what do you think about your son now Ah hey dad what do you think about your son now Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Could you wanna take my picture 'Cuz I won't remember Yeah think of me

[15 Nov 2005|03:43pm] [ music | Waltz- Stage Fright Remedy ] well my situation has totally changed, i cant say that i'm over him, but getting another boy involved changes everything, takes my mind off of him so maybe i think that i dont like him. i dont even knwo if this is a good thing...its so unexpected and random and i dont even know him, i mean maybe im sterotyping but im NOT his type of girl, at all. would i even care if this was a one time deal though? i have been thinking about it and i dont think so...i mean if it was just a hook up i could be ok with that. im a senior, im here to have fun now and im sick of taking things seriously all the time. sometimes i question whether this is a joke or not though...noone seems to be very respondent when i tell them whats going on, i wish i had someone who would just tell me what they think just like it is...im sick of all this sugar coating. but i just want to talk to him, because yesterday was weird and i know we both definitely noticed it, which is why i cant see whats going on...ahh i need to talk to him more so i can figure him out! its so hard cause i dont even knwo the kid! think of me

[07 Nov 2005|06:12pm] _____, well after what happened between us 2 weeks ago it was more than i could ever imagine, more than i could ever hope to happen. You were unsure about me, but now after what i witnessed with you and your ex last night you're making it perfectly clear. its hurting me so bad and its so easy to fake.. i wish you would just talk to me for once instead of ignoring me, i dont care what you say you've been acting different ever since our weekend together. i just wish that we could be comfortable around each other again. you and the rest of the world has no idea that i liked you LIKED you before 2 weekends ago...and what happened was a damn miracle, what happened was absolute perfection. now its gone and you might as well call it a mistake. it hurts so bad to see you doing your own thing, here i am discovering all these other girls that are involved. i wish i would've never thought about you this way. you seem so perfect for me its going to be hard to let go. i just wish we could talk, someday. Why do we choose to look at things from such a pessimistic point of view? Although, it is difficult to always have positive view points on everything, find solutions to problems that one faces maybe easier done by having positive perspectives. Sometimes, I wonder, though . . . Sadness is beautiful. Negative thoughts are capable of showing one the truth. Happiness may blind the truth. But, are we really better off knowing the whole truth? Having a firm grip on reality, yet not knowing all or whole truth, isn't all that bad, right? think of me

k [02 Nov 2005|09:07pm] lets just go check and see how much damage you did to my heart today lets see how sick im going to feel after reading this. think of me

[30 Oct 2005|06:50pm] when i read these thigns it honestly makes me sick. i think about it and why cant anythign ever go my way? i think too far ahead, think about the good possibilities and then when they dont work out (they never have) and the bad come i take it hard. i cant stand the fact that no matter who i like theres always some one else whose better with them than me. the one time that things actually worked out, gave me so much hope and this weekend it all came crashing down. i dont know what to do with myself anymore. i hate how i am and i cant see it any better because i cant bring myself to change. think of me

[23 Sep 2005|03:33pm] I got on queens court. me jenna rummer francine franich think of me

umm so [15 Sep 2005|10:08pm] [ music | Sigur Ros - Njosnavelin ] we fuckin lost tonight. i dont know how many points i had but i think around 15. i wanted to win so so bad and we had like 45 turnovers so that was really frustrating. We could've been 3-1 ahhhhhh well anyways im super excited that tomorrow is friday okay my leg hurts so bye. think of me

we won tonight [13 Sep 2005|10:46pm] yea. think of me

its really hard to describe how i feel [13 Sep 2005|10:45pm] [ music | Five Times August - Most Uncommon Thing ] now. like, i am so happy, but at the same time i feel really chill and mellow. so its like a laid back kind of happy. and boys. ohhhh well i just love the feeling of liking someone. having crushes, its so fun. this year is really great. i am filled with love love love.   So I have wished what seems could be a thousand years too deep And I have dreamed of things I need without the help of sleep And everything you do is the reason that I do this It's only fair that I should owe you all my time Cause you are a most uncommon thing You are a most uncommon thing I'm savoring So we will dance as if it seems that no one's watching And you will be the one to lead and I'll be following And every step will be an anniversary I can't believe that I will have you all this time Cause you are a most uncommon thing You are a most uncommon thing I'm savoring So take me as you please, I want you And say you'll be my ease And promise the same things I promise you Just that will do Cause you are a most uncommon thing You are a most uncommon thing I'm savoring I'm savoring I'm savoring you think of me

so we actually won on thursday [10 Sep 2005|01:30pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | the michigan notre dame game ] against st charles! 53-39 yea. Everyone played goooood and it was fun I had 15 pts, 10 reb, 8 steals, 4 blocks, and 3 assists. so it was a good game for me too. :D think of me

oh and [07 Sep 2005|04:16pm] here are some fun pictures from the weekend                           OH WHAT A WEEKENDDDD think of me

[07 Sep 2005|03:47pm] [ music | No Greater Sky - Sketch My Desire ] I haven't updated in forever because of school and such. But man is it fun to be a senior. The teachers are so much niiicer And im having a fucking blast with the spirit squaddd and basketball is going okay I got the rest of my senior pictures today and I think they went pretty well. I feel like im organizing everything though seriously. I organized the spirit squad i have to make the showcase and get everyone together to do the charts for basketball i started the hurricane katrina donations jar and im in charge of doing all that i made the basketball warm up cd im in GROWLER which means i have to have to meet all these deadlines and ugh its just more responsibility than i care to handle. but if it means more fun then woot for responsibility. think of me

God ignorance pisses me off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111 [31 Aug 2005|08:41pm] WHY DONT YOU FUCKERS CARE ABOUT HURRICANE KATRINA AND ALL THE DAMAGE IT HAS DONE? HAVE YOU NOT SEEN THE FOOTAGE, HEARD THE INTERVIEWS? DO YOU UNGRATEFUL ASSHATS EVEN KNOW WHATS GOING ON?! IM SO SICK OF PEOPLE NOT 'CARING' ABOUT THE HURRICANE, THINKING IT DOESN'T AFFECT THEM. LOOK AT GAS PRICES! THAT AFFECTS YOU WHETHER YOU CAN DRIVE OR NOT! TURN THE TV ON FUCKING CNN ONCE IN A WHILE AND SEE WHAT THE PEOPLE DOWN THERE ARE GOING THROUGH. QUIT BEING SO SELFISH AND START THINKING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE. THINK ABOUT IF THIS WAS HAPPENING HERE AND NOT THERE AND HOW MUCH IT WOULD MEAN TO YOU IF PEOPLE HELPED. SOME OF YOU ARE A REAL DISAPPOINTMENT AND NOT WORTH MY TIME. 2 thoughts | think of me

WOW. [28 Aug 2005|05:31pm] [ mood | energetic ] [ music | Swiss Army Romance - Dashboard ] I can't even begin to say how fun the concert was, holy shit. So first of all I got ready and Betsy called to say she was in town at the fun-fest and she was going to come early, like around 4:30 So she gets to my house and we're just kind of sitting around so we decide to leave, around 5:30 We stopped at McDonalds to get Iced Teas and I got a McChicken [woot for $ menu] We got a little bored on the way over, so we took a few pictures, the only ones of the trip since no cams were allowed! & I was driving, mind you. bhaha   Fun stuff. And then we finally get there and its only like 6:30...we're two hours early! So we decide to go visit her brother at his dorm. And lemme tell you, I was in a bit of awe of everything going on around us, the kids, the traffic, the campus, the commotion, everything. It has made me seriously consider MSU. We get to Josiah's dorm and Rusty is there. We chill there for a bit and then head over to the Wharton center. We get in no problem but the doors are still closed to the theatre so we chill in the hallway and bought tee shirts. Finally after about a half an hour the doors opened and we found our seats. We were pretty far back but it didn't matter because we could see everything perfect. We waited for another half an hour before the opening act finally came on. It was John Ralston from Florida, the band is good friends with Chris. I thought they fucking rocked. And it was sweet on a song called "I believe in Ghosts" Chris came on stage and played piano with them. then he kissed JOHN! whoa. hot. After the opening act we waited for another 45 minutes because there were some techincal difficulties with I don't even know what. Finally Dashboard came on. And it was honestly one of my favorite concerts.  The set list went something like this:   Swiss Army Romance Sharp Hint of New Tears So Impossible Am I Missing Remember To Breathe Rapid Hope Loss Teenage Dirtbag cover Carry This Picture Places California clip Bend And Not Break Ghost Of A Good Thing Brilliant Dance Screaming Infidelities Turpentine Chaser Again I Go Unnoticed Saints & Sailors Bitter Pill ---safe sex talk--- Best Deceptions Vidicated Hands Down yea they played for like a fucking hour and forty five minutes. There were like 4 different times when everyone thought it was going to be the last song and then he would come back onstage. The crowd had great energy and it was just so fun. The safe sex talk thing was funny too, he was like "Don't get me wrong I love sex, actually I'm getting pretty good at it" hahaha. But my favorite song was probably Remember to Breathe, because he added like 4 different songs in that and it just sounded soooo good. I recorded a little of it on my cell phone. Bend and Not Break was also wonderful and Hands Down was just great. I LOVED IT ALL. And after that we left and I bought the John Ralston CD for $5. I've been listening to it today, and my favorite song is "Gone Gone Gone" the lyrics are great. Anywho I worked today and that sucked but I don't care cause I had an amazing time last night. I went shopping today and that was fun. BUT I'm so happy I went last night. Great way to end summer, IF ONLY HE WOULD'VE PLAYED SO LONG SWEET SUMMER! But no, I heard like every song I wanted to, I dont think it could've been any better. And on a side note, I dont give a fucking shit if dashboard isn't cool enough for you. Ok I'm done. I'm happy and I'm going to go clean my room.   ITS COOL TO TAKE THESE CHANCES ITS COOL TO FAKE ROMANCES think of me

well [27 Aug 2005|04:16pm] I don't care. I dont ever give a flying fuck about anything. I'm sorry if that isn't how you want me. But on a more fun note, DASHBOARD TONIGHT WITH ELIZABETHHHH it should be pretty fun, since its at msu and all. woot. hopefully i can sneak my camera in. think of me

Yesterday was a really good day! [25 Aug 2005|03:58pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Stage Freight Remedy - In My Room ] First I woke up from Sadie's because last night we went there to paint our spirit squad shirts. I can't wait to take pictures of us with our whole outfits on, we so hot. We convinced Mr Hornak to let us wear the old cheerleading skirts and we have tall blue and yellow socks with our spray painted shirts annnd our gangsta bandanas. This is a small portion of the outfits: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v323/stephanielynn024/Friends/bandana.jpg omg i know my bandana is sweet http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v323/stephanielynn024/Friends/westside.jpg ha. http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v323/stephanielynn024/Friends/cheerskirt.jpg cheer skirt yayeayeya   Ok then later that day we had our basketball scrimmage which went okay. We split the games with Fowler. After that we had our bonding/sign making party at Kelseys cabin in Crystal. I tried to capture some moments.  packing up    I had a few good suprise attacks on Steveie.    Paige had some pretty lame stories.   Amy is jumping up and down. Her and Angie ran all the way around Crystal one morning, the equivilent of 5 miles. Good job dedicated minions.    Alison and Paige appreciate a photo opportunity.   on the dock. they look drunk. i swear its pop though!  Courtney being, Courtney    I'm glad I didn't drop my camera.   OMFG HAHAHA   Campfire story telling! Me and Courtney's freaky experience outside her house by the cemetary won hands down, fo sho.    underclassmen QT's   Well that was fun! And I am super happy b/c i got work off for saturday which means me and biz are going to dashboard at michigan state. woot friggen skoot woot     think of me

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